They're lonely, too, and looking for
someone to talk toI often reread your letters at night when I'm lonely and in painI get
confused by a lot of things that come from outside, but your
descriptions of the world around you give me wonderful reliefIt's so
strange! I wonder why that should be? So I read them over and over,
and Reiko reads them, tooThen we talk about the things you tell meI really liked the part about that girl Midori's fatherWe look forward
to getting your letter every week as one of our few entertainments -
yes, in a place like this, letters are our entertainmentsI try my best to set aside a time in the week for writing to you, but
once I actually sit down in front of the blank sheet of paper, I begin to
feel depressedI'm really having to push myself to write this letter,
tooReiko's been yelling at me to answer youDon't get me
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thoughI have tons of things I want to talk to you about, to tell you
aboutIt's just hard for me to put them into wordsWhich is why it's
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so painful for me to write lettersSpeaking of Midori, she sounds like an interesting personReading
your letter, I got the feeling she might be in love with youWhen I
told that to Reiko, she said, "Well, of course she is! Even I am in love
with Watanabe!' We're picking mushrooms and gathering chestnuts
and eating them every dayAnd I do mean every day: rice with
chestnuts, rice with matsutake mushrooms, but they taste so great, we
never get tired of themReiko doesn't eat that much, thoughFor her,
it's still one cigarette after anotherThe birds and the rabbits are doing
fineThree days after my twentieth birthday, a package arrived for me from
NaokoInside I found a wine-coloured crew neck pullover and a
letterHappy
chloe dior Birthday! I hope you have a happy year being 20My own year
of being 20 looks like it's going to end with me as miserable as ever,
but I'd really like it if you could have your share of happiness and
mine combinedReiko and I each knitted half of this jumperIf I had done it all by myself, it would have taken until next
Valentine's DayThe good half is Reiko's, and the bad half is mineReiko is so good at everything she does, I sometimes hate myself
when I'm watching herI mean, there's not a single thing I'm really
good at!
GoodbyeThe package had a short note from Reiko, tooHow are you? For you, Naoko may be the pinnacle of happiness, but
for me she's just a clumsy girlStill, we managed to finish this jumper
in time for your birthdayHandsome, isn't it? We chose the colour and
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Thinking back on the year 1969, all that comes to mind for me is
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swamp - a deep, sticky bog that feels as if it's going to suck off my
shoe each time I take a stepI walk through the mud, exhaustedIn
front of me, behind me, I can see nothing but the endless darkness of a
swampTime itself slogged along in rhythm with my faltering stepsThe
people around me had gone on ahead long before, while my time and I
hung back, struggling through the mudThe world around me was on
the verge of great transformationsDeath had already taken John
Coltrane who was joined now by so many othersPeople screamed
there'd be revolutionary changes - which always seemed to be just
ahead, at the curve in the roadBut the "changes" that came were just
two-dimensional stage sets, backdrops without substance or meaningI trudged along through each day in its turn, rarely looking up, eyes
locked on the never-ending swamp that lay before me, planting
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right foot, raising my left, planting my left foot, raising my right,
never sure where I was, never sure I was headed in the right direction,
knowing only that I had to keep moving, one step at a timeI turned 20, autumn gave way to winter, but in my life nothing
changed in any significant wayUnexcited, I went to my lectures,
worked three nights a week in the record shop reread The Great
Gatsby now and then, and when Sunday came I would do my washing
and write a long letter to NaokoSometimes I would go out with
Midori for a meal or to the zoo or to the cinemaThe sale of the
Kobayashi Bookshop went as planned, and Midori and her sister
moved into a two-bedroom flat near Myogadani, a more upmarket
neighbourhoodMidori would move out when her sister got married,
and rent a flat by herself, she saidMeanwhile, she invited me to their
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